OMG...

October 12, 2010

You'll never believe this...but I FINALLY finished BL&D! Are you amazed? I know I am. Part of what took me so long to finally be done with it is that my attitude about the entire story has changed since I first started telling it. And I actually did have this finished over on Insim. I should have just directed everyone over there to read it - it's been posted for over a year. But I honestly didn't think about it - so apologies are due. Anyhow, it's done. I can finally officially put it behind me and move on to...who knows, but at least this project is forever finished. YAY!

The End

And another month slips by...

September 7, 2010

Well, I didn't get as much accomplished as I had hoped. One more chapter of BLD to finish up and get posted. For those of you that like this story, I am very grateful. I'm having trouble liking it anymore. I've heard a lot of people say they didn't like their first pieces - and that's what I'm going through. I look at it now and just cringe. So many cliches, I've even thought about pulling it from the blog entirely. But I won't. I'll just accept it as my early stuff; a learning experience; a stepping stone.

In the background, I have some things going on. I have converted my game to almost entirely medieval. I've found medieval defaults for nearly everything in the game, from carpools, to trashbags, to maids, to homework. It is so cool to see it all in action. This will come in handy when I start working on Warriors again. No more trying to hide modern aspects of the game. It will just make shooting easier.

I had another idea or two for EFHIS, which I'm still waffling back and forth on sharing in sim form. Part of me really, really wants to. But when I think of the hard work involved in setting scenes and shooting pics, I almost shudder. But just a couple of weeks ago, my husband and I were discussing his building a house for it. I've looked high and low and not found the perfect place, and I'm not a builder. He, however, enjoys it and seems to have a knack for it. And there's a lot I would like to share with an audience. So...it may come here, after all.

I have no patience for working when my kids are home. None. In fact, just writing this while my 7 year old plays loudly behind me is enough to wrack my nerves. But I took a few weeks for myself, and am starting to feel the pull of wanting to work on a story again. YAY! This is great, because I wondered if that desire would ever return. So today, after I take the kids to school, I'm turning off my phone, no messenger, no tv, and trying to implement my new ideas into EFHIS. This morning belongs to Victoria.

Sadly, progression will be slow because for a stay at home mom I sure have a lot of stuff to do! People to see, projects to complete for friends, and reconnect days to spend with hubby. But now that the pull is coming back, I'm hoping to get more done with this blog!

Thank you so much to those of you who hung in there with me through all my emotional crap. You're very much appreciated!!

Anybody out there?

July 28, 2010

Well it's been forever. I have no idea if I have any readers anymore, and if I don't, I realize it's my own fault. However, one never chooses to have an emotional breakdown and one never chooses how or when to recover. I'm better than I was last year at this time, but not fully myself. I still have no patience to deal with little problems and often those little things get overwhelming for me.

But I'm finding myself pulled back to telling stories again. And in order to move forward, I need to finish what I started. I just posted the very long overdue Chapter 33 of BLD; and the final chapter is in draft mode; I'll be finishing that, as well. I broke chapter 33 and I don't know how to fix it. It looks mostly perfect in draft mode and I quickly remembered what I hated about using blogger in the first place. I'm blogger inept, it seems, but at least the chapter is there in its entirety - weird font sizes and underlines and all.

I have to reteach myself how to use blogger again. And I've totally forgotten how to make my pictures big, so they're teeny tiny.

I am making no promises. Whenever I do that I tend to screw myself over. Basically, how it stands now, is if I feel like working on a project, I will. But I'm not putting any pressure on myself to finish anything, because I seem to struggle with that.

So, if anyone is still out there, I am still alive and mostly well. I hope you are, too.