Anybody out there?

July 28, 2010

Well it's been forever. I have no idea if I have any readers anymore, and if I don't, I realize it's my own fault. However, one never chooses to have an emotional breakdown and one never chooses how or when to recover. I'm better than I was last year at this time, but not fully myself. I still have no patience to deal with little problems and often those little things get overwhelming for me.

But I'm finding myself pulled back to telling stories again. And in order to move forward, I need to finish what I started. I just posted the very long overdue Chapter 33 of BLD; and the final chapter is in draft mode; I'll be finishing that, as well. I broke chapter 33 and I don't know how to fix it. It looks mostly perfect in draft mode and I quickly remembered what I hated about using blogger in the first place. I'm blogger inept, it seems, but at least the chapter is there in its entirety - weird font sizes and underlines and all.

I have to reteach myself how to use blogger again. And I've totally forgotten how to make my pictures big, so they're teeny tiny.

I am making no promises. Whenever I do that I tend to screw myself over. Basically, how it stands now, is if I feel like working on a project, I will. But I'm not putting any pressure on myself to finish anything, because I seem to struggle with that.

So, if anyone is still out there, I am still alive and mostly well. I hope you are, too.