I turned 40 today, and it's not going well. I never expected to have a mini identity crisis, but here I am, wondering where the heck my life is going. I'm sure it will pass eventually, but I'll have to struggle through it. I've already had 3 cups of coffee and an obscene amount of chocolate, but shit, depression is finding me, anyway. Sigh...
My dear Ariana, happy birthday... the chocolate will only make you feel worst... it does puts you up for a little bit, but after the 'effect' is gone it only makes things worst... you will end up feeling so guilty because you ate all that amount.. and then depression will hit even harder...
If you have time and the chance, go for a walk, just feel the wind blowing on your face, it won't help, but it will feel good... many times staying in the same room, only brings up more questions, questions we can't answer... just avoiding thinking about where your life is going... think about the things you have done already... the things you have already accomplished.
I have been there in the dark pit of depression myself, so I completely understand how you feel, I was all alone, you have your family and friends around so turn to them and maybe they will make this 'moment' a little better!
Take care and just don't give up, if you want to do anything go for it... my mom just turned 47 last year, and she graduated from beauty/cosmetology school last year too, with honors... you know we are never too old to do what we want to do, to step back or to go forward... Take care and relax, and don't let the depression pull you into its darkness... and don't trust the chocolate or food to ease your problems either, they only make it worst!! :D there is nothing better than going thru all with clear senses, so stay put and look forward!!! 40 is indeed a big number so you should be proud you made it thru!!! Happy birthday once again2!! sorry if I said doesn't make any sense..
Relax. Enjoy your day and don't fret about your age. You're as old as you feel.
I'm older than you - so old I can't even remember my age - and when I'm out in town with Lizzy (and also at home) the two of us are giggling and having fun as if we both were teens.
She is, of course - and I guess in a weird way, I am too. I refuse to ever grow up and become boring.
Yes, I can be grown up, if I have to - but boring or old? That's not part of my everday vocabulary.
Here, have another box of chocolates. We all luves you.
Birthday Hugs and Kisses from the cold and rainy Netherlands.
I remember turning 40. It was a bummer. But the feeling passed, and so will yours. Now that I am sliding the downward slope toward 50, I take things in their stride now. Maybe you do mellow out the older you get, things do not bother me as much as they did. 40 is a milestone, so Happy Birthday anyway. I will try and read some more next week, have been busy!
Keep your chin up mate! ~Karen
PS: However, now I feel depressed reading that Sandy's mother is my age....*gulp* LOL!!!
Sandy - thanks so much, hon. I really appreciate the well wishes and inspiring words. It is getting better and I'm adjusting. It just hit me harder than I thought, lol.
Leah - Well said! Definitely never grow up. My hubby is 56 and is still not grown up. And I like it that way just fine. In fact, we act like goofy teenagers together - I'm sure our boys will be appropriately horrified by it soon!
It is passing, and I had a feeling it might be like that, Drew - that I learn to accept things better as I got older. Thanks for the cheering!
Thank you, Beth! Sounds like an awesome idea! Thanks for the wishes. :)
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My dear Ariana, happy birthday...
the chocolate will only make you feel worst... it does puts you up for a little bit, but after the 'effect' is gone it only makes things worst...
you will end up feeling so guilty because you ate all that amount.. and then depression will hit even harder...
If you have time and the chance, go for a walk, just feel the wind blowing on your face, it won't help, but it will feel good...
many times staying in the same room, only brings up more questions, questions we can't answer...
just avoiding thinking about where your life is going... think about the things you have done already...
the things you have already accomplished.
I have been there in the dark pit of depression myself, so I completely understand how you feel, I was all alone, you have your family and friends around so turn to them and maybe they will make this 'moment' a little better!
Take care and just don't give up, if you want to do anything go for it... my mom just turned 47 last year, and she graduated from beauty/cosmetology school last year too, with honors...
you know we are never too old to do what we want to do, to step back or to go forward...
Take care and relax, and don't let the depression pull you into its darkness... and don't trust the chocolate or food to ease your problems either, they only make it worst!! :D
there is nothing better than going thru all with clear senses, so stay put and look forward!!! 40 is indeed a big number so you should be proud you made it thru!!!
Happy birthday once again2!!
sorry if I said doesn't make any sense..
Happy Birthday, Ariana.
Relax. Enjoy your day and don't fret about your age. You're as old as you feel.
I'm older than you - so old I can't even remember my age - and when I'm out in town with Lizzy (and also at home) the two of us are giggling and having fun as if we both were teens.
She is, of course - and I guess in a weird way, I am too. I refuse to ever grow up and become boring.
Yes, I can be grown up, if I have to - but boring or old? That's not part of my everday vocabulary.
Here, have another box of chocolates. We all luves you.
Birthday Hugs and Kisses from the cold and rainy Netherlands.
I remember turning 40. It was a bummer. But the feeling passed, and so will yours. Now that I am sliding the downward slope toward 50, I take things in their stride now.
Maybe you do mellow out the older you get, things do not bother me as much as they did.
40 is a milestone, so Happy Birthday anyway.
I will try and read some more next week, have been busy!
Keep your chin up mate!
~Karen
PS: However, now I feel depressed reading that Sandy's mother is my age....*gulp* LOL!!!
Happy birthday!
Have a Mojito! Put on a pair of very sexy shoes and dance! To music inappropriate for someone over the age of 21...and turn up the volume.
again, happy birthday!
Aw, you guys are just the best!
Sandy - thanks so much, hon. I really appreciate the well wishes and inspiring words. It is getting better and I'm adjusting. It just hit me harder than I thought, lol.
Leah - Well said! Definitely never grow up. My hubby is 56 and is still not grown up. And I like it that way just fine. In fact, we act like goofy teenagers together - I'm sure our boys will be appropriately horrified by it soon!
It is passing, and I had a feeling it might be like that, Drew - that I learn to accept things better as I got older. Thanks for the cheering!
Thank you, Beth! Sounds like an awesome idea! Thanks for the wishes. :)
In honor of your birthday, and because you have such an awesome blog, and because I love you, I've given you a blog award! You can pick it up at Maymaysmemos :)
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