My World

Story updates, writing frustrations, and sim related things in general.


October 12, 2010

You'll never believe this...but I FINALLY finished BL&D! Are you amazed? I know I am. Part of what took me so long to finally be done with it is that my attitude about the entire story has changed since I first started telling it. And I actually did have this finished over on Insim. I should have just directed everyone over there to read it - it's been posted for over a year. But I honestly didn't think about it - so apologies are due. Anyhow, it's done. I can finally officially put it behind me and move on to...who knows, but at least this project is forever finished. YAY!

And another month slips by...

September 7, 2010

Well, I didn't get as much accomplished as I had hoped. One more chapter of BLD to finish up and get posted. For those of you that like this story, I am very grateful. I'm having trouble liking it anymore. I've heard a lot of people say they didn't like their first pieces - and that's what I'm going through. I look at it now and just cringe. So many cliches, I've even thought about pulling it from the blog entirely. But I won't. I'll just accept it as my early stuff; a learning experience; a stepping stone.

In the background, I have some things going on. I have converted my game to almost entirely medieval. I've found medieval defaults for nearly everything in the game, from carpools, to trashbags, to maids, to homework. It is so cool to see it all in action. This will come in handy when I start working on Warriors again. No more trying to hide modern aspects of the game. It will just make shooting easier.

I had another idea or two for EFHIS, which I'm still waffling back and forth on sharing in sim form. Part of me really, really wants to. But when I think of the hard work involved in setting scenes and shooting pics, I almost shudder. But just a couple of weeks ago, my husband and I were discussing his building a house for it. I've looked high and low and not found the perfect place, and I'm not a builder. He, however, enjoys it and seems to have a knack for it. And there's a lot I would like to share with an audience. may come here, after all.

I have no patience for working when my kids are home. None. In fact, just writing this while my 7 year old plays loudly behind me is enough to wrack my nerves. But I took a few weeks for myself, and am starting to feel the pull of wanting to work on a story again. YAY! This is great, because I wondered if that desire would ever return. So today, after I take the kids to school, I'm turning off my phone, no messenger, no tv, and trying to implement my new ideas into EFHIS. This morning belongs to Victoria.

Sadly, progression will be slow because for a stay at home mom I sure have a lot of stuff to do! People to see, projects to complete for friends, and reconnect days to spend with hubby. But now that the pull is coming back, I'm hoping to get more done with this blog!

Thank you so much to those of you who hung in there with me through all my emotional crap. You're very much appreciated!!

Anybody out there?

July 28, 2010

Well it's been forever. I have no idea if I have any readers anymore, and if I don't, I realize it's my own fault. However, one never chooses to have an emotional breakdown and one never chooses how or when to recover. I'm better than I was last year at this time, but not fully myself. I still have no patience to deal with little problems and often those little things get overwhelming for me.

But I'm finding myself pulled back to telling stories again. And in order to move forward, I need to finish what I started. I just posted the very long overdue Chapter 33 of BLD; and the final chapter is in draft mode; I'll be finishing that, as well. I broke chapter 33 and I don't know how to fix it. It looks mostly perfect in draft mode and I quickly remembered what I hated about using blogger in the first place. I'm blogger inept, it seems, but at least the chapter is there in its entirety - weird font sizes and underlines and all.

I have to reteach myself how to use blogger again. And I've totally forgotten how to make my pictures big, so they're teeny tiny.

I am making no promises. Whenever I do that I tend to screw myself over. Basically, how it stands now, is if I feel like working on a project, I will. But I'm not putting any pressure on myself to finish anything, because I seem to struggle with that.

So, if anyone is still out there, I am still alive and mostly well. I hope you are, too.

Season's Greetings

December 21, 2009

Well, it's been a long time. Where have I been, you may ask? Dealing with life would be the answer. Summer has been...rough. A lot of changes happened in our family, and we're still adjusting, but I think we're finally getting there.

I have retired from SimTales but not from storytelling. I would love to tell you I plan on returning to sim storytelling soon, but the truth is, I just don't know if I will. I feel myself getting to a point where I may want to work on The Weekend Warriors Chronicles again, but as far as EFHIS goes, I am actually wanting to finish writing it and trying to get it published. It's at 33 chapters, and will have several more to go, and doing all that in sim more than daunting.

My apologies for letting my blog fizzle. It was never my intent to do so, but unfortunately, sometimes life is just a shit river and it's all we can do not to get swept along with the current and drown.

I hope you all are well, and that you have a wonderful holiday season!

On hiatus...

May 17, 2009

Having a difficult time at home.  My youngest son, the autistic one, has been quite intense lately, and I'm having a rough time with him.  My oldest, who is my other 'difficult' one, has also been a lot of work.  They've had a lot of appointments - counseling, case conferences, dentist visits, doctor visits (my middle son fractured his arm a few weeks ago), and my husband has been running around in circles with the doctors trying to get a date set for his neck surgery.  Finally we have one, on June 4, the day after my youngest's 6th birthday.  Home life has been stressful and overwhelming, and I've been depressed and burned out.  I'm barely functioning at the moment.  I haven't been in the mood to work on my sims projects, because, let's be honest here, sometimes it's a lot of work and it's difficult and daunting to get good pictures.  I want to try to focus on my novel (that I've been working on sporadically for four years) and try to do *the final* read through and edit so I can submit it for publishing.  My goal is to have it finished by the time school is out.  It's about time I did something with it instead of thinking about it.  And, to put it simply, I'm getting sick of sims.  I'm afraid if I don't step back for awhile, I'll burn out completely.  I need a chance to miss it, if that makes sense.

So...I think it's in my best interest to take a break.  I plan on waiting until the kids go back to school in August to pick up the sims stories, unless my muse calls me sooner - but I'm certainly not going to try to force it. 

To fans of Between the Light and the Darkness, only 2 chapters left to post.  I will get those done (hopefully soon) during my break, because those pics are already done, and I'm not cruel enough to leave people hanging for three months waiting for the end.  Not quite, lol.

To fans of Every Family Has Its Secrets, very sorry.  But it will need to be put on hold for awhile.  I hate to do that, but like I said, I need a break.  It's been more work than fun, and that makes it just 'one more thing' I have to deal with.  I certainly don't want to quit, there's so much I want to share, so hopefully in mid August I'll get on with it.

To fans of The Weekend Warriors Chronicles,  I left it at a good stopping point - the end of their first adventure.  A second adventure has been in the works (the writing) for awhile now, and I have many ideas for furture adventures.  So I'm not aiming to quit this one.

Thank you all for your patience and understanding.  Thank you for your lovely comments.  Forgive me for not responding sooner - I'll try to get to it soon.

Between the Light and the Darkness update!

April 25, 2009

The Showdown continues!  Can't really tell you what this chapter is about, but let's just say that Shirra loses her temper and bad stuff happens. ;)

Between the Light and the Darkness - Chapter 31

April 14, 2009

The talking is done and now the real action starts.  You don't want to miss this!  Bloodshed will ensue, so be warned.

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